I'm tired of watching the people next to me, one at a time, go forward in life, without the effort, without the worry. I'm happy to push people forward and help them, but being the typical Sagittarius that I am, I want to go forward in life as well, quite desperately honestly. To sum everything I've been feeling recently in the past couple of weeks, I'm tired of always thinking 'if only' 'what if' 'how?' 'when?'. I'm tired of thinking about things I don't have answers for.
I have been told that I am one of 'those' people, which I agree and disagree with, I feel that I do not get things that I honestly do believe I deserve sometimes but I know I do get away with a lot of things, a lot of bad things that happen. Yes, it is my own doing for the most part, especially me ranting about something on here when I should getting my ass of this site (or the internet in general) and get myself out there, but in my defence, I may be someone that seems to get away from things easily, but I think that proves that if I'm always the one having to run away from all the bad shit in life, it means a lot more bad happens to me than good.