Wednesday, July 28, 2010

The Inspirer

So I figured, rather than spending time ranting about my nit picks and grudges, I found a psychology test to do it for me. If you want to know who I am, as a person, this is it, this is as close of a description about me, who I am, how I am, why I am. I can say that 99.8% of what is written below is true to me.

Portrait of an ENFP - (Extraverted Intuition with Introverted Feeling)
The Inspirer

As an ENFP, your primary mode of living is focused externally, where you take things in primarily via your intuition. Your secondary mode is internal, where you deal with things according to how you feel about them, or how they fit in with your personal value system.

ENFPs are warm, enthusiastic people, typically very bright and full of potential. They live in the world of possibilities, and can become very passionate and excited about things. Their enthusiasm lends them the ability to inspire and motivate others (hah. dejavu to my recent blog post), more so than we see in other types. They can talk their way in or out of anything (haha Theresa I know you're laughing). They love life, seeing it as a special gift, and strive to make the most out of it.

ENFPs have an unusually broad range of skills and talents. They are good at most things which interest them. Project-oriented, they may go through several different careers during their lifetime. To onlookers, the ENFP may seem directionless and without purpose, but ENFPs are actually quite consistent, in that they have a strong sense of values which they live with throughout their lives. Everything that they do must be in line with their values. An ENFP needs to feel that they are living their lives as their true Self, walking in step with what they believe is right. They see meaning in everything, and are on a continuous quest to adapt their lives and values to achieve inner peace. They're constantly aware and somewhat fearful of losing touch with themselves. Since emotional excitement is usually an important part of the ENFP's life, and because they are focused on keeping "centered", the ENFP is usually an intense individual, with highly evolved values.

An ENFP needs to focus on following through with their projects. This can be a problem area for some of these individuals. Unlike other Extraverted types, ENFPs need time alone to center themselves, and make sure they are moving in a direction which is in sync with their values. ENFPs who remain centered will usually be quite successful at their endeavors. Others may fall into the habit of dropping a project when they become excited about a new possibility, and thus they never achieve the great accomplishments which they are capable of achieving.

Most ENFPs have great people skills. They are genuinely warm and interested in people, and place great importance on their inter-personal relationships. ENFPs almost always have a strong need to be liked. Sometimes, especially at a younger age, an ENFP will tend to be "gushy" and insincere, and generally "overdo" in an effort to win acceptance. However, once an ENFP has learned to balance their need to be true to themselves with their need for acceptance, they excel at bringing out the best in others, and are typically well-liked. They have an exceptional ability to intuitively understand a person after a very short period of time, and use their intuition and flexibility to relate to others on their own level.

Because ENFPs live in the world of exciting possibilities, the details of everyday life are seen as trivial drudgery. They place no importance on detailed, maintenance-type tasks, and will frequently remain oblivous to these types of concerns. When they do have to perform these tasks, they do not enjoy themselves. This is a challenging area of life for most ENFPs, and can be frustrating for ENFP's family members.

An ENFP who has "gone wrong" may be quite manipulative - and very good it. The gift of gab which they are blessed with makes it naturally easy for them to get what they want. Most ENFPs will not abuse their abilities, because that would not jive with their value systems.

ENFPs sometimes make serious errors in judgment. They have an amazing ability to intuitively perceive the truth about a person or situation, but when they apply judgment to their perception, they may jump to the wrong conclusions.

ENFPs who have not learned to follow through may have a difficult time remaining happy in marital relationships (sorry babe). Always seeing the possibilities of what could be, they may become bored with what actually is. The strong sense of values will keep many ENFPs dedicated to their relationships. However, ENFPs like a little excitement in their lives, and are best matched with individuals who are comfortable with change and new experiences.

Having an ENFP parent can be a fun-filled experience, but may be stressful at times for children with strong Sensing or Judging tendancies. Such children may see the ENFP parent as inconsistent and difficult to understand, as the children are pulled along in the whirlwind life of the ENFP. Sometimes the ENFP will want to be their child's best friend, and at other times they will play the parental authoritarian. But ENFPs are always consistent in their value systems, which they will impress on their children above all else, along with a basic joy of living.

ENFPs are basically happy people. They may become unhappy when they are confined to strict schedules or mundane tasks. Consequently, ENFPs work best in situations where they have a lot of flexibility, and where they can work with people and ideas. Many go into business for themselves. They have the ability to be quite productive with little supervision, as long as they are excited about what they're doing.

Because they are so alert and sensitive, constantly scanning their environments, ENFPs often suffer from muscle tension. They have a strong need to be independent, and resist being controlled or labelled. They need to maintain control over themselves, but they do not believe in controlling others. Their dislike of dependence and suppression extends to others as well as to themselves.

ENFPs are charming, ingenuous, risk-taking, sensitive, people-oriented individuals with capabilities ranging across a broad spectrum. They have many gifts which they will use to fulfill themselves and those near them, if they are able to remain centered and master the ability of following through.

Monday, July 26, 2010


I am still in class at the moment, still here at 8.48pm on a monday night, so naturally, I am a little grumpy, but what makes it worse, I am beyond hungry, I could literally eat a cow right now if I could. And I'm just thinking now, even when class finishes at 9pm, it would probably take another hour to get home, and I don't even have enough money to buy a snack. VENT VENT VENT!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Winter calls

I'm tired

I'm tired of waiting around for something to happen to me. I'm tired of watching people who don't even make half the effort that I do, but ends up being the one with the better result. I know I can be the laziest person in the world at times, but I really do make an effort to try and get some where, I really do make that effort to become something of myself. I know this, because I'm always stressing about something, even someone, always worrying about getting something on time, getting things right for the next person, helping out others when I should be focusing on my own problems. Only recently I have really actually let go of that little voice in my head that always tells me I shouldn't be spending money and have just been out there, buying things I want, giving me at least a tiny moment just to enjoy what I got for a bit, before going back to realising I should've given that money to help others. It just seems like my life has been one big budget joyride.

I'm tired of watching the people next to me, one at a time, go forward in life, without the effort, without the worry. I'm happy to push people forward and help them, but being the typical Sagittarius that I am, I want to go forward in life as well, quite desperately honestly. To sum everything I've been feeling recently in the past couple of weeks, I'm tired of always thinking 'if only' 'what if' 'how?' 'when?'. I'm tired of thinking about things I don't have answers for.

I have been told that I am one of 'those' people, which I agree and disagree with, I feel that I do not get things that I honestly do believe I deserve sometimes but I know I do get away with a lot of things, a lot of bad things that happen. Yes, it is my own doing for the most part, especially me ranting about something on here when I should getting my ass of this site (or the internet in general) and get myself out there, but in my defence, I may be someone that seems to get away from things easily, but I think that proves that if I'm always the one having to run away from all the bad shit in life, it means a lot more bad happens to me than good.

I'm really starting to wonder, no actually, I'm really starting to doubt these days, if I'm ever going to be that person that gets to stand there and have something good happen for once? if ever?

Desperately want

RRP: $450.00 US

Monday, July 19, 2010

Oh no

How I've been behaving in the past couple of weeks, I think I'm going to become one of those girls that ends up having 5 credit cards all maxed out and in some serious trouble.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Love you typography

Work experience

I'm currently doing work experience at Optimo Designs, a design firm that does work for the big clients, like borders, nestle etc. It's everything that I would like to do once I get out of school. But after spending a couple of days 'working' there, it's not what I imagined it to be. I realised, putting me in an office space staring at a book shelf for about 7 hours a day, is definitely not good for the soul. I've had less to no work to do, other than some colour correction of images, very dull. The people are lovely, but, I guess they're just way too old for me to relate to. It may be the design industry to hauls in the big money, but I don't know if I can sit in an office for much longer!

Which brings me to the question, can I survive being in an office 5 days a week, no windows, no colour, just for the money? Or am I going to be one of those people thats poor but enjoyes where they work? I've always said to myself, even if it's boring, you gotta do it for the money, it's worth it, but I'm not so sure anymore.

Hopefully I'll get transferred into a more design studio with slightly younger people, so I feel more at home.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

The Melbourne Design Market

Some very cute things I picked up at the Design Market today. I'm so in love!



Friday, July 9, 2010


How do you

How do you put up with me? No honestly, how? How do you not get angry (most of the time) when I suddenly mood swing? How do you not snap (most of the time) when I won't talk it out with you? How do you still say I love you (all the time) when I tell you I need space? How do you hang on when I try to push you away?!

You're really amazing. I love you!

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Fashion Era

Different for a day

Going to the snow was amazing! But not in the bang pow amazing way, more like a peaceful beautiful way. I actually really enjoyed the drive leading up to the snow, passing by farms and fields of adorable cows and foals everywhere. I think one of the visuals I'll always remember in my mind was when we were driving up the mountain, I looked out the window and saw fields of grass, cute wooden fences, sloping hills, and clouds hovering through the whole scenery, because I knew right then, I was up there with the clouds, enjoying it with my closest friends and lover.

So I guess, I didn't like the actual snow itself, wet and cold, gross, but it was fun, it was great to be somewhere different for a day.

Friday, July 2, 2010


For the first time in a long time, I woke up willingly at 8am. No alarm, no loud noises. Now, I don't know if it's because I failed my epic all nighter of assignment-ing and such, or I'm just really happy, especially when I'm listening to Coldplay. I'll just take what I can get!

Thank you

Beware, corny blog coming up. Don't look if you hate lovey dovey stuff.

I'm sorry about some of the things I say to you, it was purely out of stress, I promise. I love you. I can't stress how lucky I am to have someone like you come into my life and brighten up my days when it was so dark once upon a time, wow, that was such a long time ago, I can't believe how much time has passed, but at the same time, it feels like I only just met you yesterday.

Thank you for letting me love you.
Thank you for loving me.

Inspire me with design

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Dear god

So, I have about have about just over 24 hours to complete 2 months of assignments and briefs without any sleep at all. Dear god.
It is my fault for leaving it to the very end, but I'm in the most chaotic mindset right now, I can't even get myself together to sort out what I need to do! I guess the first logical thing to do is to find my assignment sheets so I can follow a criteria.

Im not making sense, I know it. I'm just venting!
The picture bellow sums up everything in my head in a nutshell.