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To my stalkers,

I honestly didn't think anyone other than Albert read this extremely emotional blog, but it's been quite crazy how many people do actually read it. How do I know? Some have confessed of course, but some drop hints, sometimes I'll tell someone something, but they'll already know and I'll be thinking in my head, "A HAH!!!!! You stalk me!"

So it's been dead, but just to let you know, I've moved places!

http://www.i-forone.tumblr.com

I love most of you.

Life in a day

I feel so much better. I finally went to the doctors and get myself some drugs and now I can breathe again! For the time being anyways. I watched Life in a day last night, while I did enjoy it, I guess it didn't live up to my expectations as being incredibly moving as the hype says it is, I felt some of the scene switching was very abrupt and some scenes left me very little time to mentally prepare myself for some confronting images, but watch it, it's still pretty amazing, hits cinemas July 29.

What did you do on July 24 2010? If I had filmed my entire day for this film, it would've been Albert and I celebrating our Anniversary. :)

priorities

I am always so exhausted. I thought I could handle this extremely fast paced environment, but I am struggling. Everything keeps changing, everything keeps moving, people keep chasing, racing and kicking anyone in their way for that leg up the ladder, but I can't keep up and in a funny way I don't want to either.

I have been feeling so absorbed in the wrong aspects in life, I've completely let down what's important, my friends, my family, my boyfriend, myself.

I don't remember the last time I just sat down and listened to music but after a hard long day, I came home and randomly listened to this song and I felt relieved. I know this song is about loosing someone important and seeing that loved one moved on and happy without you but somehow, I've completely reinterpreted this song to fit my current day to day to help me realise that I need to get my priorities in order for whats really important. I love Adele.

epitome

She is the epitome of everything I want to be.

organic

I know the collection is call organic but I forgot by who! :( Love simple.

Up to date

So, this blog is finally disintegrating. It's becoming hard in many ways to keep this space regularly updated for many reasons. As I keep mentioning, laziness and work are huge factors but a few unusual ones have surfaced recently.

A lot of exciting things have been happening, vip nights, grand openings, style snapped for style bloggers, being a socialite, hair and make up professionals, fashion design, collaborations etc a lot of things I would LOVE to go in depth with, but these days I have been so heavily consumed in work, I havent had the time to see or talk to ANYONE about anything, even Albert (gasp). My words just wouldn't have any wow factor or sha-bang if you've already read about it on my blog, so I have been hoarding all the nitty gritty details in my brain so that when I do see you, I can tell you myself! I guess it gives you an incentive to get into contact with me! But do not despair if I don't reply, I'm so sorry to those who have constantly tried to contact me through countless thoughtful messages/calls that I have been neglecting, I do read them and they really do keep me motivated, so please, keep sending your love, I will get back to you!

Another reason is recently, I have been hearing from friends that people who I'm not particularly close with (or don't even know at all) know of me and my personal life, and have been making some pretty hurtful accusations about my character and personality. People talk, it's normal, but I can't help but get a little upset. If you find that what I write here or on my facebook overbearing, I'm not asking you to read it. Unfriend me on facebook because obviously, you are not my friend. But what irks me the most is that I don't force any of you to read my blog. I don't advertise it other than the minor link I put in my info page via facebook, but it's your choice to come here and your choice to read what I have to say. My blog will be about what has happened in my life, what I like, what I don't like, my job, my life.

And in face to face situations, don't say "how are you" if you don't genuinely want to hear it, I've recently learnt to keep my mouth shut and just politely say "good thanks" to avoid sounding 'up myself' to certain people, I was only trying to be friendly and strike a coversation.

So please, if you have a problem with my life, don't ask me how am I and/or stop visiting this page, because if you don't want to hear it, I wouldn't want you to know whats happening in my life either.

point

I am so exhausted, I try and try and try, but really, what is the point of it all if all I get is grief and baggage.